in this 1/2 year period that i am at the states, i never accomplish as much as i expected myself to be accomplishing... sounds complicated? well, me-self is not sure what i just said either..
anyways, before coming to the states, i had this AMERICAN dream, where i wanna be AMERICAN-IZED and all those stuffs... and in fact i was quite tough about and glad that i had chosen an uni with few malaysians/asians in it....
BUT, the fact is, it kinda turn out the other way round....
- i come to realize that instead of improving my english, my malay and cantonese were improved...
- instead of mixing a diverse culture, i end up having circle of friends which consists none other than, *no offense* asians....
- instead of getting exposure of the cool american culture punk-rock that i admire so much, i ended up concerning anything materialistic (bah, blame the business school that i am attending, it's all bout business, nothing personal...)
- and thanks to me moving to an apartment, i am missing out all those fun my ex floormates are having right now... T___T (owh hell no, i don;t miss my ex roommate though)
it kinda hit me that i have spent (well, actually my parents....) so much to come all the way here, just to be malaysian/asian-IZED again....
don't get me wrong though, i still love my country, and there is still alot of PENANG PRIDE in me.....
just that, i think this is not what i should get for paying soooo much....
therefore i am making a vow... i shall mix with as many ang-mohs as possible, speak english with the American slang (owh please don;t hate me...), and i shall be AMERICANIZED!!!!
in a good way, of course... =)
4 comments:
why do u want to be americanized? be urself!! u'll actually appreciate more of ur country when u are out it. u'll see more of the dark side of the country. and u'll see how other ppl from other places see our country is. u'll feel (at least what i feel) that u wanna do something out of the stupidness there.
it's good to be exposed to other cultures. but i dun i will want to be others.
just be urself. :)
owh, god, din't i not anticipate this kind of reaction, sometime, somehow...
well, not to say americanized, but more towards absorbing their culture...
don't get me wrong bro, i am still pretty much a penangite, and yes, i am still able to speak, and even curse well in hokkien.. hahaha
Excuse me but you're weird in chinese on zheng yue chi yi okay. HAHAHA. Yea this is a post that I'm expecting. Your current state isn't not well, you know...don't say americanized, but absorb more and take whatever you think its good :D ..Something like the 'free' spirit hahahaha.
I know tht you'll be able to do it XD
Ohhh honey, same here. I hang out with Msians. Almost exclusively. Bah. But meh, we only become all the more aware of ourselves in the global context :) And take care, you!
xoxo
Post a Comment