it kills not to know something for sure...
the riddles of "should i?" or "shouldn't i?" kept playing in my head, pushing away my sweet dreams and wake me up in the middle of night....
wouldn't it be just perfect if we were given a script on our lives, where we just need to follow it?
but then it will kill the fun and excitement....
and though as much as i want to get over it as soon as possible, a part of me just can't let go of everything, everyone that surrounds me here....
i, very much hate to admit, that i am scared...
scared of what? i don't know, myself....
what i know, my heart keeps pumping faster, and faster.....
high and low i search and hunt and think and analysis.....
but i still can't figure out what i am afraid of....
- tick tock tick tock -
time is passing by as i typed all these nonsense...
as the DAY approaches, i feel like there are much much more to do, much much more to settle, much much more uncertainties to face....
and as the time passes by, i just can't help, but kept on thinking what lies ahead....
i'm trying hard to calm myself down, and embrace whatever more shits that'll come pouring on me....
there's nothing much i can do, but to kept telling myself....
as the DAY approaches, i feel like there are much much more to do, much much more to settle, much much more uncertainties to face....
and as the time passes by, i just can't help, but kept on thinking what lies ahead....
- will everything be alright?
- will the action drama i watched only in movies happen in my real life?
- will any more shits fall on me, especially when i'm in my darkest period?
- will i meet my guardian angel who will lead and protect me?
- will i, able to make it?
- will the action drama i watched only in movies happen in my real life?
- will any more shits fall on me, especially when i'm in my darkest period?
- will i meet my guardian angel who will lead and protect me?
- will i, able to make it?
i'm trying hard to calm myself down, and embrace whatever more shits that'll come pouring on me....
there's nothing much i can do, but to kept telling myself....
I WILL SURVIVE!
just, another random entry to speak out my mind....
3 comments:
C'mon... have more fun. =D
Do what u think is right, have no regrets, that's how i take it, and that's how i will live.
People fear the unknown, i sorta welcomes them, coz who know what they'll bring? Plus, if we knew what was coming, life would be pretty boring, dun u think?
But the 1 thing i'm really scared of is regret Dun ask me why. =/
Anyway, since this concept works for me [is working, at least], maybe u can try it. Doesn't hurt to try.
Oh, 1 more thing...
u know i'll always be here right?
^_^
awwww....
thanks so much eh!!
yeah, hanging out wif ya does make me feel much better! =)
u're the first one i'll fly to if i ever feel depressed in the states! so better prepare extra beds in ur dorm ya! i'll come crashing in any time... x)
hohohohoh.....
haha...no extra bed...but u can crash UNDER my bed. ^^ i'll turn the heater up XD
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