i survived - ing....

*okay, here's some brief updates on my blog, before i lose out u loyal readers out there..... and sorry la, no funny, kaypo or anything interesting now... will try to think of something k?

i have a list of more than 20 songs to listen to, as music's listening test is on the next day.... and hey, if all i have to do were to distinguish pop songs from avril lavigne, pink, or even lindsay lohan, i can guarantee you i'll hit a perfect score... (ok, a bit too much here... lol...)

but 20 over ancient songs from Renaissance Period till Romantic Period????? those songs are torturing my ears!!!

and seriously, the more i listen to it, the more they sound alike....

and as i said in my previous blog, i am currently a nanny, a maid, a driver...(bla bla bla)..... and juggling my time between all these roles feels like hell!!!! i've never been so busy, so occupied, so hardworking, so responsible as i am now....

before this, i used to complaint that my mom had too many free time as a housewife, but when i'm finally on her shoes, it ain't easy at all....

first, shopping, wet market style - i tell u, i never knew touching a few dead fish will ever smelt soooo bad, that even sometimes i wonder touching our own shits will smell better.... and just when u think all buying all those grocery is easy... no it is not; with so many stalls and varieties and prices and this and that...... but thank god my aunt is there, i'm just in charge of paying, and taking all those stuffs.....

second, cooking - no, not the pour hot water, wait 5 minutes for ur maggie mee to cook kinda cooking; or even just boil the spaghetti and add with tomato paste kinda cooking as well..... i meant cooking every day meal, kinda COOKING!!!... though i'll never say i can cook like a big chef , but hey!!!! my cooking deserves a rating of 8 out of 10 k!! hehehehe.....(well, so far, no one puked, no one lau sai, and all my dishes were finished! =D).... as a matter of fact, i enjoy cooking very much... it is like a stress therapy for me... and believe it or not, i used to think of becoming a chef as my profession, but somehow, somewhere, i ended up on the spot i am now..... AND this, i have to salute my mom as well.... cuz after a week, almost 20 meals later, i have already run out of recipes, which i end up cooking almost the same thing day by day.... :( imagine my mom has to cook every day, 7 days a week...... [ i think my dad did curi curi tah-pau nasi kandar due to the dullness of the variety of my cooking... lol]

third, servant + driver + maid+ others - i dun have to sweep the floor, i dun ave to wash clothes... but i have to prepare breakfast, lunch and dinner, standby all the time in case my mom needs me..... it does hugely affect my normal daily routine... i dun have much freedom as i used to, no more hanging out with friends too oftenly, no watching tv non stop and doing foolish stuffs, and i have to wake up at 7.30 every morning!.... though i miss my old life very much, i never complaint about what i have to do now...(minus the times when i am very pek cek, and where i feel like punching someone real hard...) but on the other hand, i feel proud of myself, for being capable of handling all these, doing all those stuffs that i never done before... and most of all, i learnt new stuffs, new responsibility; which in turn make me a more wiser, mature and independent person.... and i realized that i am a very versatile person... hohohoho (muka tembok)....

there are times where i just feel like breaking down and cry out LOOOUUUDDD, but i'm holding on....

cuz i know everything is going to be alright,

and soon, my sis will be back to rescue me.... =)

and again,

I AM A TOUGH, STRONG BITCH

i guess i need to keep repeating it as my daily mantra, and to keep me going on every day....

lol