life.

sometimes, i am jealous of my friends.

as long as their parents give them the greenlight to buy something, they'll just go and get it.

want a car? want the new handbag? want to travel the world?

as long as their parents gave the nod of approval, they just go for it, without having to worry about any consequences, any limits, any resposibility.

as for me, asking for something relatively expensive will never get an definite answers from my parents.

they never say 'NO'. they never say 'YES' either.

they just say: 'you yourself know how to spend the money wisely'

in other words, 'IF U DECIDE TO SPEND THIS MONEY U BETTER MAKE SURE IT IS WELL SPENT AND YOU GET THE VERY BEST DEAL U COULD GRAB'
-i have to bear the responsibility for myself. i will have to pay for the consequences of my spending, i would have to control my own limits.

so, unlike my friends who can spend their parents money without guilt, i can't.

it's not my parents will not give me the money for it, it is because i know what my folks' monetary statements are like, and spending every single penny of it does not feel good at all.

ah, how i wish i could just spend and get whatever i want and just leave all the financial burden to my parents.

it kinda bothers me for a while, especially when i am hanging out with very, very loaded friends now.

that is, until i had a talk with an american colleague of mine; who said she had been financialy independent since she was 15.

'I START PAYING MY OWN BILLS EVER SINCE I GOT A JOB AT 15. IT'S NOT THAT I COME FROM A POOR FAMILY, BUT WITH FOUR CHILDREN TO SEND TO COLLEGE, WE JUST HAVE TO MAKE SOME SACRIFICES'





why am i complaining again?